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So, I made that new livejournal I was talking about.

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Please come add me and read the entry I've made about my shiny new mac and recent shopping spree :D

I've already added everyone from this journal- so don't forget to add me back! Closing this journal in a week!

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'Sup?

I'm having a pretty fun night just messing around on youtube and the PS2 not having to worry about school until sunday.

I found this- it's the song Promise by Akira Yamaoka, it's pretty much one of my favourite songs ever. I wish I could play the piano. this kid is only 14... Watch at least a few seconds of it if you like really beautiful songs/and/or piano music.



I just got finished playing Silent Hill 2 in Japanese, which was pretty cool. Though I did get sick of reading 何何を手に入れた (you got the...) all the time. I wish more games came with JP lang settings, but they usually translate it into English in Japan then send only that version over to Europe and everyone translates from that into french or whatever.

Does anyone remember that Johnny's Entertainment fanvid which had the Craig David song "Johnny" to it? I made it, but youtube killed my account a year or so back, and I really want to watch it again, but it's probably gotten lost. Boo.

any youtube vids to recommend? i'll watch anything right now, i don't want to go to bed :P

8 months, why can't i forget already? I guess I still can't get over it. It's not even about him anymore, it's about everything that happened to me because of him and how unfair it all was, and what a waste of everything it was. And nobody will ever understand.

It starts with
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried
so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so far
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter


ugh such an emo song, but it's the only thing that comes even close to how i feel about it... i can't articulate it.

you made me such a bitch... I wish we'd never met

Because I love it so much, here is the text we just got done translating in Evolution of Japanese. It's in classical Japanese which at first seemed like a whole other language but it's actually way cool, in an archaic way. i love how from the use of honorifics alone you're meant to get to buddha. he isn't mentioned at all otherwise. I think it sounds pretty too.

今は昔、人のもとに宮づかへしてあるなま侍ありけり。することのなきままに、清水へ、人まねして、千日もでを二度したりけり。其後、いくばくもなくして、主のもとにありけるおなじ様なる侍と、双六をうちけるが、おほく負けて、わたすべき物 なかりけるに、いたくせめければ、思わびて、

Ima wa mukashi, hito no moto ni miyazukaheshite aru nama saburahi ari keri. Suru koto no naki mama ni, Kiyomizu e, hito maneshite, sen nichi mode wo nido shitarikeri. Sono nochi, ikubaku mo nakushite, shiu no moto ni arikeru onaji you naru saburahi to, sugoroku wo uchikeru ga, ohoku makete, watasubeki mono nakarikeru ni, itakusemekereba, omohiwabite,

Long ago, there was a certain young samurai who was in the service of some lord or other. When he had nothing better to do he did like other people and carried out the 1,000 day holy pilgrimage to Kiyomizu. He had so far done this twice. He played Suguroku with a similarly-employed Samurai who also worked under a lord. But he lost a great deal, and he had nothing with which to pay his dues. The winner berated him, and he was very remorseful about it.

( tale with a twist after cut, read it damnit )

When we first got this text I was basically like HUH? けり？ why is everything backwards and upside down and in kanji? OH MY GOD. It's so freaking difficult. But once you learn the new (old?) rules of grammar it's sweet.

everything is shit.

Ok so hayley had a migraine or something so I had to do all the presentation work on my own in Arai Sensei's class. I skipped jellyneck's class and went home because i have a shit cold, couldn't breathe and couldn't stop coughing so I went home for cough medicine. same thing before tranter's class so i just went home, almost literally bumped into my ex getting out of the paternoster and i freaked out. if he had actually come into contact with any part of my body I would have puked. so came home feeling like i wanted to die and went to bed in the dark with the smiths on my ipod for a few hours trying to erase the image of his fucking face from my mind

how was your day?

hello

I ate a lot of umeboshi today. Mmmm! so good.

Tomorrow I'm going to get my hair cut... I found a good picture to take to show what i want- it's actually of eikura nana and it's got the front, back and both side views. My hair's gotten too long, and I don't like it long. I had it waist-length for about 5 years but I can honestly say I'd never want it long again. It's annoying and boring. Anyway I'm really looking forward to getting it cut :D and I bought one of those conditioning colours with those things that make the light reflect... idk how but it looks fun.

I talked to Maki san again last evening- her whole family went to either Waseda or Keio! She said my Japanese was improving :) and she told my mum I was "kirei as always" :)

Wish me luck- I hate getting my hair cut, I'm paranoid they'll screw it up...

My mum forwarded me this email from her friend in Tokyo,

What great news! Thanks for letting me know. I'm so happy for Von and
somehow feel that now everything is set for her to have a really,
really good year (although know I'm prejudiced in favor of Waseda).More later and congratulations to your wonderful daughter!

She's so nice! We had dinner with her & her husband in Tokyo last year. She's said she'll look out for me when I'm in Japan, isn't that lovely?

attn American peeps... what is a 3.0 grade point average? I got my Waseda forms today and that's the minimum requirement, but I don't know what the UK equivalent would be. The whole form is totally geared towards Americans, which is confusing me slightly. I think I should be cool, I've got 2 Firsts and two 2:2s, which makes a very high 2.1, almost a First overall which should be more than enough. And the important bit is the language, which I have Firsts in. Oh, also an English degree. That will look kinda sexy on the form.

Some people in our class really don't seem to care. We got a grammar sheet on monday, and we finished it off in class today. Everyone had a whole evening to check the kanji readings etc but today in class I was the only one who could read it without going "er... Sensei...kanji?" pffft.

I'm exhaustedddd had a whole day of classes today which is unusual for a UK uni student. My head hurts again.

I still can't believe I'm going to WASEDA UNIVERSITY.

Oh, something pretty bad happened today, I saw my ex boyfriend. Me and Hayley were going up in the paternosterhttp://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paternoster and he was in the lift. opposite. He gave me a really cold look, (lol i didnt even recognise him at first) but who cares because I had my awesome cream trench coat I bought in Shibuya on and I had my sexy bag and boots and I was laughing with a friend and he was on his own in an elevator like a sadsack. He really isn't hot. I didn't feel anything when I saw him, which is good. I really couldn't give a shit about his existence anymore.

WASEDA!

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最近はね、勉強とかすると、直ぐ頭がすごく痛くなる。無理をしてるかな。

今朝はバスが遅く来て、授業が始まった後で大学に着いてしまった。イギリスのバスや電車なんて世界で一番最悪だ。

今夜は志賀直哉の「灰色の月」を英語に翻訳してる。難しい漢字がたくさんあるのに、楽しんでる。

今でも頭が痛いから、ちょっとだけ寝る。

早稲田大学ゲットしっちゃったああああ！！！！！！1111

translation: I am going to Waseda University.

Frickin' Waseda!!!!!!!

I swear to god, I was due this karma.

HELLYEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Waseda

James says:
We should meet up this weekend in the IC
James says:
and have wet steamy benkyou

lol

in other news, the guy who stiffed me for the waseda place is unlikely to finish the year due to failing all his essays.

well, fuck a duck.

Hey

Random thoughts... I'm going to meet Josh tomorrow. We're going for a bike ride in a nature park. Should I take his picture? My friends want to see. And he is very very good looking. Heh.

I wonder what ed wanted the other day. Meh. Maybe he's interested again now I have become the Ice Queen. That would be ironic. I do miss him though. It's going to be weird seeing him again (I'm sure I'll run into him at some point, probably on a bad hair day while I'm doing something stupid.)

My mum said the other day "I bet when he sees how pretty you have gotten this summer he'll want you back."

Ok so I lost weight grew my hair bought a million clothes and pretty much keep myself maintained these days (manicure, pedicure, perfume, earrings, things I didn't use to bother with)

But who knows. I'm pretty ok with myself as I am right now.

I don't need him.

does anyone else wear perfume here? i seriously have never bothered but a friend of a friend works in the perfume shop and she got me interested. My dad got me vera wang's princess for my birthday and I love it. Kate Moss's scent is nice too.